If I could, I would

And it's not that I can't, it's just that I don't want to.

This is what it looks like outside right now, but it's an old photo. I used to go out in almost any weather to capture just about anything and I wasn't ever really too phased by the cold, or the moisture in the air, but wow...that's changed. I've changed. 

Let's blame it on menopause...as it's kind of the answer for everything these days.

Anyhow, I used to think that I had to chase anything and everything and photograph it, especially nature, but I don't really do that in the same "oh my gosh, the snow and the birds and the clouds and the trees and oh, did you know I own a "big camera" so get out of my way, here I come" kind of way that I used to. 

But when the weather is cooperative. And by cooperative, I mean warm. And by warm, I mean above 40 {who am I kidding, let's say 50} degrees and preferably with the sun warming my back, confusing me and making me believe that my favorite blanket is wrapped around my shoulders, off I go to get "lost" in the tiny world I see through my lens.

You might be saying, what?..."the tiny world you see"...and think I've totally lost it, but I truly believe the world, as huge as it is, is tiny when you get to decide what you really want to see, especially through a camera lens, what you really want to remember, what you really want to document and what you really want to talk about, even with strangers, when the day is done.

So, rambling the way I often do when I sit here and type, let's raise our glasses to what we see, our ability to share with others and what we find special enough to remember on any given day ...oh, and to menopause, which doesn't totally suck by the way.


  1. I love the tiny lens part. So true. I'm on the other side of menopause now and it really wasn't that bad for me either. Thanks for sharing.

  2. I've also changed in the same way. I rarely use my 'big camera' anymore at all, except the other morning I discovered the cedar waxwings had taken up residence in a willow tree on our property, and I bet I took a zillion photos of them. Of course, the pics are still waiting in my camera. I have no idea if any are any good, but it was fun being back in 'the zone' for a few minutes, totally forgetting about the rest of the world, just focused on that tiny part. I get it.

  3. I am at the very beginning stages of menopause, which so far I am ok with. I feel I am in one of two modes, actively exploring or silently plotting and pondering, when it comes to my photography and creativity.

  4. at 52 my body is just beginning the menopausal stage and I am hoping it's not too bad.

    I'm wondering when you're gonna take the leap and move to that warmer clime we've discussed in the past :-)

  5. You make me smile, dear friend. There were years (maybe it was those menopausal times) when I didn't want to get outside. For some reason now, most of the time I don't mind going out there even to going bare foot for a few minutes to take a picture with some snow on the ground. I guess my attitude now is we only live once, so better do it.

  6. I love the confusing clarity of life as we change. We make different, more careful choices. We set back and enjoy and spot the small in this so-called big world of life.

    It's awfully nice to see you back here on blog. I've missed your posts and your visits.